dear God

dear God,

Hi. It's me. I am having a bad day today. I am tired, grumpy and just want to put on my pjs and eat ice cream and watch I love Lucy ALL day. Please, I ask that you give me Your strength right now. Give me Your guidance. I'm scared that I wont pass my test and that my paper that I stayed up till 3:30 am to finish wont be any good. Help me to trust in You and only You. Help me to love You with all my heart, mind and soul. I know that I should be more strong, more like Daniel. He was in the lion's den and he wasn't scared! Because Daniel trusted You and only You. Help me be like Daniel right now. I can't say today, because today I didn't start like Daniel. and I know You make all things new. I love you God. Okay, for now I guess that's it. Thank you.

Love,

Carol

"a penny a day, makes millions a yr!"

I don't really know exactly when this happen to me, or when it finally hit me, but I have become somewhat of a penny pincher lately! And for those who know me, this is NOT like me! I like to buy myself things, lots of things, pretty things. But lately, I haven't! And today, It just hit me, that I rather throw on my beige Crocs then go out and get a much needed pedicure, because NOW i can't wear my FAVORITE rainbows. And I am OKAY with it! In my Bible is says we must be content with whatever God has for us. "Keep you lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you." Hebrews 13:5 (NIV) See, that's just it! The more we worry about buying things, then we have more money issues (more money more problems!) God's will in our lives is to gives us a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11) and that amazing hope is JESUS! I just wish I was more like this before. But we all do learn from our mistakes, no?! When I do go "shopping" now I say to myself, "Now do I really need this, or just want this?" I just recently walked in to the apple store at the mall the other day. I haven't been inside this new apple store yet because I know me, and I really WANT the ipad! Like really, really want one! But, see back in February I made such a great purchase with my Kindle and last September I got myself my Hp mini netbook. So I ask you, do I really NEED the ipad? No, I guess not. So stayed there, and played with it then I forced myself to not even start asking the apple geeks anything about it! I already know that I LOVE it, so they don't need to sell me on it! Its so awesome! but I know that I will feel so guilty if I buy it. So I just put it down and looked for itouch covers instead (the original reason I was even there!) I walked out feeling very satisfied and very proud of myself :)

Jesus is MY boyfriend :)

Its September 1 and I want to start this month off by blogging my little heart out! I know I have been missing a couple of blogs here and there, but hey all that matters is that I'm HERE now! right?! Seriously, I know I have been gone ALL summer without the slightest little sentence to check in. Its not like I was actually gone this summer! No way! I didn't do much this summer. This summer was blah. My only little highlight was my bday and it was awesome! The family and I went to the Disneyland and had ourselves a fabulous time. I was cool that everyone was wishing me a "Happy Birthday Carol"! At first, I thought hey how do they know its my bday?! Hello, I got my little button to show my day :) I didn't even get my tan on this summer, nope! I always go to the beach in the summer and spend hrs tanning and reading, but not this summer. But you know that was okay, since I am a year older I kinda don't want to put more sun expose to my body. So God has been showing me so many amazing things to me this summer. I know I said, I really didn't do anything special this summer, but honestly being with God my entire summer, it was special. I am discovering God in everything now. I mean everything. From picking that parking spot so i wont be late to my class, to scheduling me with the the people that DO work and not slack off. He is everywhere. He knows when I had such a LONG day/night at work and speaks to my heart to let me know He is in charge of the day, not me. Jesus is my boyfriend! He cares for me, and this is what takes my breath away! That he cares about ME, down to the insignificant things in my life, but are important in His eyes. I am important in His eyes. To me and my heart, this is romantic. I see Him in all the little things in my life and all the big things in my life. And, finally today is just Sept 1. After 6 years, its just Wednesday Sept 1. You know why? Because of Jesus. He is in my heart, my mind, my soul. Six years ago this very day my life was kinda turned upside down( more on that in later blogs) I didn't know my true Love, yet. And to me this means, I am growing and falling more and more in love with my creator. Such an awesome feeling! So, yeah, Jesus is MY boyfriend :) so cool!!

"You shall Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength." Deuteronomy 6:5

"As the Father loved Me, I also have loved you: abide in My love." John 15:9

p.s. I am SO getting that sweater if i find it somewhere!!

will God remember you?

"God remembered Noah"! I was reading this last night before I went to bed and it just spoke to my little heart. It's funny, I have read this scripture tons of times before but it didn't speak to me the way it did last night. Let's back up a little. To Genesis 6:9-13 " This is the genealogy of Noah. Noah was a just man, perfect in his generation. Noah walked with God. The earth also was corrupt before God, and the earth was filled with violence. So God looked upon the earth, and indeed it was corrupted their way on the earth. And God said to Noah, "The end of all flesh has come before Me, for the earth is filled with violence through them; and behold, I will destroy them with the earth.God was very serious. Men were hurting and killing and robbing and stealing and lying and sinning continually. Only Noah was seeking the Lord. How disappointing. God made man and loved man, but man hated God and His ways. Therefore, God decided to destroy the unrighteous by bringing the biggest flood in the history of the world! Noah build the biggest and coolest ark ever and his family went into the ark along with all these animals that God told Noah to put in the ark. The rain was for forty days and nights. It flooded the earth for one hundred and fifty days! And every living creature on the face of the earth was wiped out! When the waters finally receded, the ark came to rest on the mountains. Noah and his family continue to wait in the ark for eight months while the surface of the earth dried. Finally, after an entire year God remembered Noah and his family and let them out of the ark. Noah built an alter and worshiped the Lord! God was pleased with the burnt offering of clean animals and promised to never destroy the living creatures He had just done.

You see God's purpose of the flood was not to destroy the people, to destroy the wickedness and sin. But no matter how sinful and wicked those people were, Noah and his family stayed sinless and walked with God. Noah didn't care what others thought about him or how he was ridiculed for following God and His righteousness. He loved God with all his heart. Noah obeyed God. And yes, God did remember Noah! Will God remember you?

who is your GIANT?

I was listening to that Casting Crows song this morning while I was totally rushing out the door to get to work...but the lyrics were just in my heart so much I wanted to blog about it."Oh, what I would do to have the kind of strength it takes To stand before a giant with just a sling and a stone Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors shaking in their armor Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed The giant keeps on telling me time and time again "Boy you'll never win, you'll never win."But the voice of truth tells me a different story the Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"and the Voice of truth says "this is for My glory"Out of all the voices calling out to me I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth!"

This is from the one of my favorite Bible stories, In 1 Samuel 17: 1-58, the story of David and Goliath. Goliath was a nine foot tall soldier from Gath, he would brag and say he can beat any Israelite soldier who would fight him. But all the Israelite soldiers were afraid to fight him! And David was young shepherd who believed in God. He said, "The Lord who delivered me from the paw of the lion and from the paw of the bear, will deliver me from the hand of this Philistine." David took his sling and five smooth stones from the brook. Then he went to fight Goliath. King Saul wanted to put his heavy armor and helmet on David. He also tried to give David a big sword, but David said he could not wear them. He knew that his strength and protection came from God. Goliath cursed the boy coming out to fight him. David said to the Philistine, "You come against me with sword and spear and javelin; but I come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied." David threw a stone with his sling at Goliath. It hit Goliath in the forehead and the giant fell face down. Without a sword in his hand he struck down the giant and killed him. David believed in God, and God helped him win over the giant. The giant fell when stone hit him. Then David used the giant's own sword to kill him.
I used this Bible story a lot in my life! it reminds me that the God we serve is always there to help us fight that GIANT in our life!

My mommy

Mom, you are a such a wonderful mother.

You are so kind and gentle, yet you are such a strong hard working mom.

The simple ways you care for all of us.

You always put your wants and needs last.

You always make me feel so loved and cared for.

You always know the right words to say when I am feeling down.

You know me better than anyone else.

You give guidance when I ask.

You support me and always encourage me.

You have taught me to be such a strong dependable women.

You love your Jesus and you trust in Him with all you heart, and it shows.

I Love you more than you know.

Your not just my mom, you are my best friend.

Thank you mom for all that you do.

And thank you Jesus, for blessing me with such an amazing and wonderful mommy.

My Season

"To everything there is a season, time for every purpose under heaven.." (Ecclesiastes 3:1) Every time I read that verse it always brings me back to all the different seasons that God has taken me in and taken me out of. I sometimes wonder if this is the season the Lord has me, or is it the season I have ME in? I made a promise to myself and to you, whoever you are reading my blogs that I will keep it simple, real, and honest. Maybe this is why it takes me a while to actually "publish" my blogs, because I go over them, and think who on earth would want to read this mess? However, this simple blog, is something that I look forward to and enjoy to write, and I like sharing my thoughts and my ideas about My Jesus. About His Love. To answer my own question, I do believe that this is the season the Lord has me. To sit more and more at His feet. To learn more about Him. To share more about Him. To fall more in love with Him. To come back to My first Love.

When my back when out last week, I was miserable! Boy was I hurting. But, that ugly time has gotten me closer to my Jesus. My hours at work, aren't that much right now, (thank you Lord for that!) and yes I have to take some summer school classes to make up the ones I had to drop, and yes I know I will probably be in the only the 40 year old lady in my classes, but hey at least, I'm not giving up! ( I don't think I would look like I'm 40 when it happens...got good genes) and I still haven't called my best friend since 4th grade to tell her I love her and I miss her and that I think about her and her family everyday. But God is working on that. (we do text here and there) And that I am back on the weight watcher wagon and this time, not gonna drop it. (already lost 5 pounds this wk!!) and yes, today I laughed until I cried, danced like Beyonce and finally sat at the feet of my Jesus once more. Thank you for taking this little journey with me, once again. Sorry I have been absent for a while, but I am BACK!!!

Love and blessings to each of you =)