dear God

dear God,

Hi. It's me. I am having a bad day today. I am tired, grumpy and just want to put on my pjs and eat ice cream and watch I love Lucy ALL day. Please, I ask that you give me Your strength right now. Give me Your guidance. I'm scared that I wont pass my test and that my paper that I stayed up till 3:30 am to finish wont be any good. Help me to trust in You and only You. Help me to love You with all my heart, mind and soul. I know that I should be more strong, more like Daniel. He was in the lion's den and he wasn't scared! Because Daniel trusted You and only You. Help me be like Daniel right now. I can't say today, because today I didn't start like Daniel. and I know You make all things new. I love you God. Okay, for now I guess that's it. Thank you.

Love,

Carol

"a penny a day, makes millions a yr!"

I don't really know exactly when this happen to me, or when it finally hit me, but I have become somewhat of a penny pincher lately! And for those who know me, this is NOT like me! I like to buy myself things, lots of things, pretty things. But lately, I haven't! And today, It just hit me, that I rather throw on my beige Crocs then go out and get a much needed pedicure, because NOW i can't wear my FAVORITE rainbows. And I am OKAY with it! In my Bible is says we must be content with whatever God has for us. "Keep you lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you." Hebrews 13:5 (NIV) See, that's just it! The more we worry about buying things, then we have more money issues (more money more problems!) God's will in our lives is to gives us a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11) and that amazing hope is JESUS! I just wish I was more like this before. But we all do learn from our mistakes, no?! When I do go "shopping" now I say to myself, "Now do I really need this, or just want this?" I just recently walked in to the apple store at the mall the other day. I haven't been inside this new apple store yet because I know me, and I really WANT the ipad! Like really, really want one! But, see back in February I made such a great purchase with my Kindle and last September I got myself my Hp mini netbook. So I ask you, do I really NEED the ipad? No, I guess not. So stayed there, and played with it then I forced myself to not even start asking the apple geeks anything about it! I already know that I LOVE it, so they don't need to sell me on it! Its so awesome! but I know that I will feel so guilty if I buy it. So I just put it down and looked for itouch covers instead (the original reason I was even there!) I walked out feeling very satisfied and very proud of myself :)

Jesus is MY boyfriend :)

Its September 1 and I want to start this month off by blogging my little heart out! I know I have been missing a couple of blogs here and there, but hey all that matters is that I'm HERE now! right?! Seriously, I know I have been gone ALL summer without the slightest little sentence to check in. Its not like I was actually gone this summer! No way! I didn't do much this summer. This summer was blah. My only little highlight was my bday and it was awesome! The family and I went to the Disneyland and had ourselves a fabulous time. I was cool that everyone was wishing me a "Happy Birthday Carol"! At first, I thought hey how do they know its my bday?! Hello, I got my little button to show my day :) I didn't even get my tan on this summer, nope! I always go to the beach in the summer and spend hrs tanning and reading, but not this summer. But you know that was okay, since I am a year older I kinda don't want to put more sun expose to my body. So God has been showing me so many amazing things to me this summer. I know I said, I really didn't do anything special this summer, but honestly being with God my entire summer, it was special. I am discovering God in everything now. I mean everything. From picking that parking spot so i wont be late to my class, to scheduling me with the the people that DO work and not slack off. He is everywhere. He knows when I had such a LONG day/night at work and speaks to my heart to let me know He is in charge of the day, not me. Jesus is my boyfriend! He cares for me, and this is what takes my breath away! That he cares about ME, down to the insignificant things in my life, but are important in His eyes. I am important in His eyes. To me and my heart, this is romantic. I see Him in all the little things in my life and all the big things in my life. And, finally today is just Sept 1. After 6 years, its just Wednesday Sept 1. You know why? Because of Jesus. He is in my heart, my mind, my soul. Six years ago this very day my life was kinda turned upside down( more on that in later blogs) I didn't know my true Love, yet. And to me this means, I am growing and falling more and more in love with my creator. Such an awesome feeling! So, yeah, Jesus is MY boyfriend :) so cool!!

"You shall Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength." Deuteronomy 6:5

"As the Father loved Me, I also have loved you: abide in My love." John 15:9

p.s. I am SO getting that sweater if i find it somewhere!!